(153) Mix

Was willing to write lots of things, but could not make it.Wanted to share about a great level of service and humanity I came across in the hospital two days back when I had gone to give my blood samples, but will write about it later because I am very very tired. Had been packing things all through the day.Will be leaving for Udaipur in the morning.Its almost 10 months that I had been there.Gonna see lots of difference...
   
Had been postponing my trip to ahmedabad too, because of fever last month, but hopefully this time, I will visit Ahmedabad as well, may be for a day or so.

             Temperature, oh my God, it's dipping every day. Two days back, it fell down to 6.5 something in Pune. It's very very cold.And am sure, it's gonna be more chilly in Udaipur.I hope Charvi keeps well through that cold.

              Have taken almost 20 days break from the college,to rest. Hopefully I join back once I return to Pune.

             Many other things I miss on writing everyday, but frankly speaking, don't know why, but I feel too laid back to do so...
       
             Chalo, will catch u back later sometime, have to wake up early... till then, take care...bye..good night..

(152) Charvi's demand

Charvi had been insisting for long that she wants a sibling.Some days back she told me very crisp and clear that she wants a brother very very soon. I told her that we will get one for her some times later. Then I asked her what if she gets a little sister, she said, she doesn't want a sister. And even if i get one, then I should better get a brother too, so that she can take care of her brother and sister will be taken care by mamma.
Well, this things keep repeating on and off.

Last week, she asked me why her friend's mummy's tummy was so big. I told her that a new sibling is going to come in sometime to their family.Next moment she started crying..she asked me why is she not getting any sibling, why is God not sending any sibling for her. I told her if she will behave well, even she will get one, i just tried to divert her mind. She gave a thought for a moment and then asked why is Nonu getting another sibling when he already has one little brother and he too doesnt behave well at times. I asked her who told her so. She said, savita aunty is so round and round, so does she also has a baby inside her tummy.(Savita is my friend whose son is Nonu and studies with Charvi, Savita is on a little healthier side so Charvi thought even she is pregnant)...I told her no it was not so, it's just because aunty eats lot of food thats why her tummy is big, but then she had too many more questions which went on and on....

Later next week, she came to me in the kitchen and told out of nowhere,"mamma, it's okay even if you get a girl , because even i am a girl, so its fine but please tell God, that i will behave and please send me a sibling soon"...i was speechless to this deal of hers...

I thought, should I be thinking about- all the pains and entire term bedrest I  went through during Charvi, the unsuccessful other pregnancy, the physical and the mental fatigue then after, the cesarean procedure and the precautions thereafter, the effort and patience it takes to rear up a child, my personal apprehensions...OR Should I simply think of Charvi's demand and the need of the time to get her a sibling.

She told me she had a dream some days back, and God promised her to fulfill her wish very soon..She is very excited about it.

I don't know, if I will ever be able to deliver her dream safe and sound in time...but I wish I stand true and tough through it.I don't intend to challenge her faith in God and what she saw in dream, but I hope she is not left heartbroken..

(151) Silence and the words

Though silence may be the best option,
                              but,
Some emotions and feelings requires the sound of the words, the magical words..