(276) Wish fulfilling SPREE!

The way God has put my wishes on a spree of fulfilment since some recent times, it gives me a chill to think what if God turns my fearful thoughts too, in a reality. Is it for real! The way my dreams and prayers are being paid off is miraculous,be it for myself or for others.

Frankly speaking,am scared in deepest of my heart. Scared of being counter faced by chain of events in answer to all this good times.But I do not wish to be a pessimist here. Am so so happy today, I have no words to describe my gratitudes to the great energies there in making things possible. Am sure whoever said , said it correct that " You are what you think".

Knock on the wood, I just do not wish to see any bad or sad event any sooner now. Happy for my loved ones...happy for myself!

Love...

(267) Thank you & love you Rishika!!

I am posting the words written by a dear friend Rishika who came into my life not very long ago, but has undoubtedly become a beautiful part of it and a dear darling to me.She happens to be my younger brother's friend but is now a friend to me as well.
This post is dedicated to her but is also being written with one same old selfish motive..that is..to keep for my records and memories so that I can refer to and feel uplifted in my dark times.lotsa love to you sweetheart.

Here goes the beautiful words by her and with her due permission...copy pasted as it is..




"[3:50PM, 15/02/2015] Rishika Chakraborty: Hey didsu...

[4:29PM, 15/02/2015] Rishika Chakraborty: Apse bahut sari baat kehni h...d sole reason for y we got to know each other is ur poems...but  over d time i have realised that gradually instead of reading ur poems I read ur blog posts...specially the ones on seekingcerebralimmunity....I have become addicted to reading those even if I have so much work piled up for d day....I have read all ur posts starting from ur first love to d one which u wrote just few days back....I felt as if I actually lived all those moments just like u did...whether it b about riding a bike without informing anyone and leaving everyone left with no other option to search for u....or ur childhood days...or ur love for short hair and later charvie's love for ur long hair...or d moments u struggled wid nishka's demand for seeing her father that very moment....every moment....

Bt to tell u d truth...I have started luvng u be oz of d positivity which u have for lyf...each post of urs ends wid d lessons which u learnt from that very incident...

While reading ur posts I cud relate my lyf in many ways...I had tears in my eyes becoz I cud easily understand wat u must have gone through in those tough moments ...ur luv fr family...ur fears as a daughter...ur concern fr ur brother...d moments wen u wer missing ur mom...

Wat I have analysed is that whatever may b d situation..howsoever tough it was...u tried to find d goodness in d same...I salute that approach and spirit of urz...d way u luk at lyf...

May god bless u  and give u d opportunity to c a day when ppl will cm and introduce u by saying, "Come, meet the proud mother of two extraordinary professionals and most importantly two most wonderful human beings Charvie and Nishka...!!"

I don't know whether I will b there to witness 
That moment...bt us din ap mujhe yaad karna...and beliv me...that day will surely come into ur lyf...my blessing for both of them...

Love...love...love....for such a wonderful person I know...its u...my Mita di😘

[4:47PM, 15/02/2015] Rishika Chakraborty: I always beliv that important words r to b said...I shud not sit and regret that I didn't say wat I felt...I fear this feeling...

That is y I am writing this to u...Meri iccha thi ki mai apse ye sab kuch kahu tab ap mere samne ho...taki mai apke expressions dekh saku...apke India ane se pehle roz mai Chetan ko ek hi question puch puch k pareshan karti hi ki didi kab ayegi..aur apke ane k baad ki didi ko lekar kab ghar aoge...unfortunately we didn't get much tym to talk...but still...don't forget...I luv u..."

(266) Live life before life leaves you

Disclaimers:

Ø  This has not been written with an intention to preach anyone.

Ø  It’s a self reminder kind of thing about beliefs I held all through, with a hope to help others who may find similitude with my thought process.

While browsing through net, I stumbled upon an Indian obituary website, where again by chance I learned about the demise of one of my ex colleague from past beyond nine years. If not for this site, my memory had completely erased his being from my mind, as I had conversed with him only on a very professional stratum. Yet, a glimpse of his posted picture, strikingly reminded me of his ever smiling face, cheerful conduct with everyone on the floor, and the obviously visible zest in his maneuver towards life, career and dreams to grow big. He passed away in 2013, and he was about 37 years of age as mentioned in the details.

So, if I had to die at the same age, what am I left with right now? A few years on my hand versus thousands of plans to be executed. Am sure, he would have been the same, and for that matter everyone of us, living in this times are somewhat akin, when it comes to performing the act called life.

It is not at all wrong to be ambitious, or to carve out the future plan, but it is equally important to live the life we have in present. In the race to compete with fellows, we stop looking at the blessings we are bestowed with, and eventually we start living lives on autopilot, with bodies doing mechanism, brains running directed chores, and soul wandering and struggling to find life amidst this chaos.

I strongly believe and always tell my people, my family, closest friends that life is in this very moment. Live it to the fullest with being the best person possible. But to confess myself and as mentioned by my loved ones, I often fail to follow my own principles, I give into the pressures of life, think more than necessary, worry for things which may really never ever happen, get annoyed and irritable, lose faith and at times act in not so affable ways. Basically, I forget to live, to enjoy what I am conferred with and directly or indirectly it not only impacts me, but also  people around me and the relationships I share with them.

Sharing some views, that I think, if put in practice, will undeniably make life more meaningful and fulfilling.

·         Be grateful for what all you have and be more giving, help the needy, we are not going to take anything with us when we leave for good, except for the love and blessings we have earned.

·         Be more forgiving, kick off that ego, don’t hold grudges against others for long. Don’t talk bad about others as far as possible. Apologize for your mistakes & try to assemble broken bonds, but don’t hell bend on doing so, maintain self respect, give your best and leave on the other person and time to decide.  God never gives you the challenge you can’t handle. Be optimistic.

·         I  believe, “whatever happens, happens for good”. So do your karma, the best possible one and leave unto the universe and the energies within to respond to your deeds. All that is meant for you will definitely come to you. Have faith, have patience.

·         Life is very unpredictable. Before the call for the godly abode strikes on you without notice, make sure you have lived a life you would feel thankful for, you have done enough for your fellows known and unknown, you have done your bit to support the survival of your mother earth, mother nature.

·         Don’t keep things for tomorrow. Do all that you like. Complete  that pending special holiday, dress up the way you like, read your favorite books, sing, dance, jump, eat, paint, yell, drink, get drenched in the rains, skid on the snow, ride that bike, kiss all you want, fall in love, make love, embrace life with open arms….don’t stress if you are not able to do everything you wish for..but at-least..give it a try! Believe me..it’s worth it!

·         Love is the greatest tool, boon, art, aid, sense, ability, gift, honor and blessing that we all have been bestowed upon by the very nature which gave us birth. Let us all be more loving, kind, generous, grateful, helpful and add more values to our own lives and to the ones that thrives around us. Propagate enough love and disseminate it in everything you do, it’ll keep you alive even after you are gone.

There’s still a lot I would wanna talk, but may be some other time. Perhaps, I am turning quite emotional at this moment. So I end here for now by sharing a video on a girl who died two days after it was shot. Don’t miss it my friends, please do watch it!!

Aisha

With Loads of Love..Mita

(235) Everyone is loved

Uniqueness is indivisible when it’s about  individual’s sole characteristic that stand out beyond every other trait and makes him/her most lovable and precious by many or at-least one person.

I believe every individual is blessed to have that one person in life for sure who loves without reason.

May not be possible that you become the dear most one for the very person, who remains most valued to you, but you should still learn to give worth and respect to those, for whom you are the treasured one. If you can imagine and feel the pain of not being cherished, then you can also understand the feelings of those to whom you are valuable. You may not make them all the apples of your eyes, but for sure you can learn to be courteous to their adoration.

Believe me, it’s a wonderful feeling to know that you mean a life to someone. That your smile is the cause of someone’s waking up, that your happiness is something that someone never forgets to ask for in prayers, that your worries makes someone cry, that your sadness darkens someone’s day, and that your beating heart is the very reason for someone’s heart to keep beating.

And I can never be any less thankful to the almighty for sending so much of love in my life through various reasons and people, wrapped in delightful bonds and labeled with different relationships.

(229) Forehead Kisses

Beauty of being kissed on the forehead is beyond description. I love the forehead kisses. It gives the sense of self-assurance. When kissed on the forehead, I feel I am the most important, lovable and coveted person around. Adore being showered thus touches my soul. My eyes ceases to remain open and the lids shuts involuntarily ,as if they want to enclose the intact feel in themselves and keep it there forever and ever. They get filled with water of gratification and salt of entreat and yet they want nothing but to remain closed. My breath and the blood flow streamlines in co-ordination and forms a  melody only i can hear. My heart feels calm, settled, fulfilled and loved. That moment I feel like a child being loved unconditionally and being accepted as she is. No judgment, no queries, no blame game, no liabilities, no heart aches, no ill feelings, no ego, no  detestation, no if , but, why and so…it is pure acceptance, pure reception and pure love. Forehead kiss forms an embrace around my aura and hold close it, in a way most innocent and cosseted. Without arms around, I feel wrapped and secured from all worries. I end to anticipate any more from life and conclude within the entire world of joy and affection. I love the forehead kisses , I love being kissed on the forehead.

(225) Amalgamation

To the depth of eccentricity and to the zenith of insanity, with the gusto to live till the alacrity to die…there flows the blood with piquancy of your love, in every single vein of this mortal house where resides my soul that covets to fly away and amalgamate in the very core of you..in the very soul of you..

(220) I so much love you

Have seen him addressing me caustically at times,

But could hardly believe the words to be true

And soon after, could feel in his words-his rue

Only for the reason that he loves me too

Oh endearing man- I so much love you…

(218) You do not vanish

What if it was like- a chance-one last time!

And you would have seen me, grappling like a famished

Oh please, if that happens, you do not vanish.

What if it was like a bid- walking down the aisle!

And you would have seen me, dressed up so clannish

Oh please, if that happens, you do not vanish.

What if it was like an ask- you demanding gift!

And you would have seen me, kissing you in lavish

Oh please, if that happens, you do not vanish.

What if it was like- dying in your hold!

And you would have seen me, gladly getting perish

Oh please, if that happens, you do not vanish.

(212) Besides and Beyond Love

Time and again, I question myself
Is there something else too,
Besides and beyond the ‘love’

That keeps me cemented with you

Often I am left more startled
At my mind’s undying exuberance
More far flung you try to get from it
More vigor is added to its perseverance 

Though it leaves you with your free will,
It tags along with every blink you make
Though it lets you muse you are uncared for,
It aspire you with every breath you take

 

Falling apart has been gracefully agreed to
Yet the obtuse mind doesn’t cease to hope for

I laugh at, I pity, I counsel this resolute
Inept all advices, it doesn’t cease to long for… 

I wonder over and over again
Is there something else too,
Besides and beyond the ‘love’
That keeps me attached with you

(204) Heartfelt Gratitudes

I know, “thank you” will not validate

To thank “You” for everything

I feel so very affirmative

You know what I mean!

 

Pains have always been a part

And will remain with my breath

But what you gave as an insight

Is an honor, love filled wreath 

We have also been childish

We have been too mature

But hardly in our bond earlier

I felt this greatly secure

 
Perhaps, it is because of

The clarity brought in the moment

Or may be due to the acceptance

Which, perchance was so dormant

The scuttle, the fracas, intolerance still exist

But now they appear, so very physical

You repeat in my mind “calm,calm,calm”

Setbacks now seems a little bit lyrical

Besides all the hustle and sore melee

There co-exist now, a pleasing serenity

How less I yearn to see you in corporeal

By far, in my heart, there remains no Malignity

I know I have been very self-seeking

To keep intruding in your tranquil precinct

It never was meant to steal your joy

It was only to earn your special squint

May be I was puerile, maybe I was selfish

Or may be desirous of, owning you more and more

Though I always knew it, you strengthened my belief

I need not quest you there, you reside in my core

Word ‘Promise’ may not pose magnitude

Let me put it straight in unpretentious sound

“God bless me”, I intend to now put down

The meddling, the bothering and the hound

I do not know, if that would be easy or tricky

But am sure, your abet will thrust me through

I want ‘You’ to be happy, I want ‘Me’ to be happy

There’s more to the life, when I say “I love you” 

(203) Was worth it...!

Charvi had received an invitation for her friends birthday celebration at Pizza Hut, one which is located around 15 kms from where we live. I had been telling her that I wasn’t sure if I will take her there. But yesterday, while dropping her at the school bus, when I told her that I wouldn’t be taking her for the birthday party, she agreed but her face became sad. The bus left, and I felt sad too. So I decided, that I would try my best to fulfill her wish. I had an acute backache, dreadfully hurting feet and head was spinning like a wheel. Still I managed to finish the day chores, put Nishka to her noon nap though forcibly, and packed the gift for charvi’s friend. When Charvi came back from school, she was happy to learn that she would be going for her party. She finished her homework really fast, did her extra study work which I make her do and was all set to move. I drove her there, dropped her and went to a nearby mall to pick up some groceries. Nishka was pestering all the time to go to Charvi. After an hour and half, we left from the mall and went to pick up charvi from the birthday venue. It had already become very dark, was raining like mad, and it became really difficult to find a parking place. Picked up Charvi and started driving back home. While going I did not find it that difficult, but when I was driving back, I felt too too tired and energy less, fatigued and completely worn-out . I requested kids to be quiet because my headache made it impossible for me to bear the slightest of noise, although there was the world honking outside the car. And it was virtually very difficult for me to drive through the high beams flashing on from the opposite direction, people overtaking me from either sides,  rains pouring endlessly, and kids eating up my head. The same stretch took around 45 minutes while going and 1 hour 20 minutes while coming back. By the time we reached home, I felt like a dead fish. But had to go on, can’t help you see, being a mother-after all. Freshened up a bit, and then fed Nishka, which again is a tough job to do, she being a poor-eater. There was no willing in me to eat anything by self. While I seated blank for two minutes, Charvi came closer to me, hugged me and said, “thank you so much mamma, you took me to the party, I had loads of fun all because of you, I know, you are very tired now, please take some rest, love you mamma, goodnight”. I hugged her good night and there came the little prankster Nishka. She loves thanking people in her special way. I had got her some chocolates for keeping her from crying and wanting Charvi while the latter was in party. She hugs very tight when she wants to say thank you. She hugged me and tried her best to occupy me in her little arms, kissed me on my forehead and then pointing to my nose she asked, “mamma hele(here)”..i nodded in yes, she kissed on my nose, then asked again pointing to my chin, “ mamma hele (here)”, I said yes, and then she kissed on my chin and repeated her questions and kisses for my cheeks, eyes and hair. And then she said in her sweet cute voice, “thanchu(thanku) mamma”….. the joy in her eyes was priceless and the love she gave me was eternal. Though the physical pain remained, but the agony caused by it got disappeared. Both of them slept after a while, and I kept watching those innocent faces, loving beings, who loves me without any reason and expectations. Around midnight, I had my dinner and then slept. The day throughout had been very pathetic, but it ended on a sweet note, thanks to Charvi and Nishka. I love you my babies.

The pain was worth it..

(199) Pain

It is so painful and excruciating feeling, to learn that you and your intentions have been misapprehended and misread by the very one, whom you thought of as the person- who understood you to the unsurpassed perimeters….It hurts...hurts to the core..believe me!!