(74) NEW PLACE

Quite a long break, isn’t it! Yeah, I know. To be honest, time passed by like a skit on my plans after leaving Hyderabad. Not all so unfulfilling, but less things came as desired, leaving aside few beautiful events.
Not later than I had disclosed the news of leaving Hyderabad and shifting to Noida, calls started pouring in with more of concerning tone about our movement(to noida) rather than congratulating us for the new development(dheeraj’s carrier growth).Every caller raised the trepidation involving the weather, social life in north, and most importantly our security. And this was more prominent because of all the media reports which were telecasted in the recent past about different crime stories which took place in Noida, Delhi and surrounding areas.People’s worry added as a strong supporting to my hundreds of excuses for not shifting to Noida. Reason unknown or rather curtailed, I basically never liked north part of India for living. And no one knows better than me how difficult it has been for me to set myself and my house over here.
After shedding buckets of tears in vain, at last I had to move in here and so I did.Initial 20 days we were put up in a hotel during which we searched for the accommodation to shift in. Every visit to a new place brought me across varying views by the residents, nearby vendors, realty agents about the security concern. Some advised it was bad to stay in Delhi, some said not good to stay in Indirapuram and many said it was worse to live in Noida. We had a tough time to decide and finalise the house.During all these days, I picked up every possible bad news from the newspaper and highlighted it to Dheeraj trying to make him realize that he has done a mistake by choosing the career option here. But this exercise would have hardly helped me because ultimately I had to live back here.
After shifting our households, I went to Udaipur for 10 days while Dheeraj was in London.Came back, settled the things and then I went to Gujarat for almost a month and have come back last week. Moving around like this was perhaps the act of hiding myself from the reality that has actually fallen upon me and that is that I have to live here.
I have been thinking over it all this time, is it really such a bad place to live because the evidences says so And/Or it has been hyped to me by my self hatred plus spreaded fear about the crime by the people.
If I go by the number then, during last three months, I have come across the news of not less than 10 rape cases,3 murder cases and around 15 theft cases in and around this place, though I stay in so called Posh and safe locality wherein NH is just 5 minutes from my building, infact visible from my balcony, to the adjacent is a big shopping mall and in the complex itself the security system is of high tightened up level. People are of the opinion that whatever level of personal security you beef up for yourself, be assured about your insecurity if you fall in jurisdiction of Uttar Pradesh and Delhi police or for that matter police in entire North. But isn’t it what they say for the Police all over India, leaving of course some officials for exceptions? God..am so so confused and baffled with all such talks that I have stopped reminding myself that am living in this part of the country. I don’t know, how much is the truth and what level is of fib, because there are lakhs of people who are already living here since ages and that too happily. Friend of mine says that fear is in my mind and not in the society, so trusting those words, and on the note of hopes, I herewith start the new chapter of my being and look forward to have a safe and happy living in the place of my bad-choice list. Will catch u soon..