2 years later
-Hello bhaia-
-hey Chutki, how are you-
-am fine bhaia, and so excited to learn that you are coming to delhi next month-
-ya,, I thought , let me meet my naughty sister whom I haven’t met for years-
-oh bhaia, how sweet of you-
-so, what do you want from Calcutta?-
-will you get me whatever I say?-
-anything my Chutki-
-bring bhabhi along with you, I know, you guys don’t share a good affiliation, but I still want to see her, I have heard she is very beautiful and sweet spoken, please bhaia-
-no-
-please bhaia, I know you haven’t forgotten Taani, but how long will it continue like this, you have to get back the hold on your life-
-don’t worry Chutki, I have good hold on my life, and please,, don’t you ever take that bad name again in front of me-
-what? why you talk like this bhaia, I am shocked, how can u be so rude about her?-
- I said, I don’t want to talk about that bitch-
-stop it bhaia, enough is enough, people don’t talk bad about their enemies even, if they are dead, and look at you, you are rubbishing your love after she is no more-
-what?, what you are saying Chutki?
-don’t feign bhaia, as if you don’t know anything!-
-I don’t Chutki, I don’t, I don’t know any such thing, when did this happen? please tell me, oh my god, Taani, where are you?-
- are you serious bhaia, you don’t know about it-
-I don’t Chutki, please tell me, what happened to my Taani?
-please stop crying bhaia, I am sorry, I thought you knew it all and still….i am really sorry bhaia, Taani had a brain tumor and it became the cause of her death-
-when it happened?-
-a week before your wedding bhaia-
-why didn’t you tell me then, you were there in my wedding, right?-
-yes bhaia, but Taani had made me swear on her and gave me a letter to be given to you only after your wedding-
-where is that letter?-
-didn’t you get it bhaia?-
-no, never, you never gave me, how would I get it Chutki?-
-I gave it to your mom when she had come to Delhi after your wedding ,and asked her to hand it over to you-
-she never gave me one-
-that is bad, ask her-
-what did you tell her while giving the letter-
-I said, this is from Taani and she is no more-
-oh god, Chutki…do you know what was written in the letter?-
-no bhaia, I never opened it, how could I, it was meant for you-
-okey, thanks Chutki, I will talk too you later and I am sorry if I was too harsh-
-its okey bhaia,, please take care-
-bye-
-bye-
-Maa, maa.., where are you maa?-
-yes Rishi, what happened-
-Maa, when you went to Delhi last year, Chutki gave you a letter, where is that?-
-what letter, which letter, she didn’t give me anything-
-don’t lie maa..please don’t lie, don’t make me be rude to you, tell me where is that letter?-
-I tore it off-
-and-
-put it to fire-
-maa…!!-
-what!!-
-how could you do that to me maa..u knew it was from Taani and it was her last letter, and still, oh maa…can a mother be so cruel?-
-yes, I knew, it was from Taani and still I did that-
-did you read it maa?-
- there was no need, and I was not interested-
-I hate you maa-
-I did it for your good Rishi-
-what good maa? what good?I didn’t give her chance to speak her heart when she was alive and now, look maa, how fateless I am, she tried to tell me something for the last before she left for ever, and I missed even that. I lost the last source of encoding her core…. I, I suppose, I deserved it maa, I think I am punished this way.
-no beta, don’t think so-
-no maa, this is true…this loss will haunt me forever and ever…Taani I miss you..
To my Taani..
I saw you and that was all
Life changed forever
Though I could never say
But you were the only reason, I breathed after that
Life to me, became the task to see you in my world
To make you my queen.
My life became meaningless,
When you disappeared without reading my eyes,
Without listening to my heart
An era passed, I didn’t see you.
I thought I would die without letting you know, what you meant to me
But, my prayers fructified
We met,
I got the chance to unburden my heart
And I felt content to have told you what I always wanted to
Humans, we are never satisfied.
Now, I wanted you to love me too
Time went by listening to your voice and waiting for those words
And one day I heard the thing, I would have bargained my whole life for
You acknowledged my feelings
I had nothing more to demand.
But yet, I became selfish
Your emotional presence in my life was not all,
I wanted you to be mine every way,
And this broke us apart.
Now, when you are not there,
I realize all the more what you meant to me
I hope I had understood this when you were with me
However demanding I had been to you in my life,
I only wanted you to be mine, and only mine
Though you too said the same through your eyes
It took me long to understand your spiritual approach
But now, I know that you are mine
Wherever you are, be at peace
And remember only one thing about me,
That I truly truly love you and will die doing the same
Rishi
-Hello bhaia-
-hey Chutki, how are you-
-am fine bhaia, and so excited to learn that you are coming to delhi next month-
-ya,, I thought , let me meet my naughty sister whom I haven’t met for years-
-oh bhaia, how sweet of you-
-so, what do you want from Calcutta?-
-will you get me whatever I say?-
-anything my Chutki-
-bring bhabhi along with you, I know, you guys don’t share a good affiliation, but I still want to see her, I have heard she is very beautiful and sweet spoken, please bhaia-
-no-
-please bhaia, I know you haven’t forgotten Taani, but how long will it continue like this, you have to get back the hold on your life-
-don’t worry Chutki, I have good hold on my life, and please,, don’t you ever take that bad name again in front of me-
-what? why you talk like this bhaia, I am shocked, how can u be so rude about her?-
- I said, I don’t want to talk about that bitch-
-stop it bhaia, enough is enough, people don’t talk bad about their enemies even, if they are dead, and look at you, you are rubbishing your love after she is no more-
-what?, what you are saying Chutki?
-don’t feign bhaia, as if you don’t know anything!-
-I don’t Chutki, I don’t, I don’t know any such thing, when did this happen? please tell me, oh my god, Taani, where are you?-
- are you serious bhaia, you don’t know about it-
-I don’t Chutki, please tell me, what happened to my Taani?
-please stop crying bhaia, I am sorry, I thought you knew it all and still….i am really sorry bhaia, Taani had a brain tumor and it became the cause of her death-
-when it happened?-
-a week before your wedding bhaia-
-why didn’t you tell me then, you were there in my wedding, right?-
-yes bhaia, but Taani had made me swear on her and gave me a letter to be given to you only after your wedding-
-where is that letter?-
-didn’t you get it bhaia?-
-no, never, you never gave me, how would I get it Chutki?-
-I gave it to your mom when she had come to Delhi after your wedding ,and asked her to hand it over to you-
-she never gave me one-
-that is bad, ask her-
-what did you tell her while giving the letter-
-I said, this is from Taani and she is no more-
-oh god, Chutki…do you know what was written in the letter?-
-no bhaia, I never opened it, how could I, it was meant for you-
-okey, thanks Chutki, I will talk too you later and I am sorry if I was too harsh-
-its okey bhaia,, please take care-
-bye-
-bye-
-Maa, maa.., where are you maa?-
-yes Rishi, what happened-
-Maa, when you went to Delhi last year, Chutki gave you a letter, where is that?-
-what letter, which letter, she didn’t give me anything-
-don’t lie maa..please don’t lie, don’t make me be rude to you, tell me where is that letter?-
-I tore it off-
-and-
-put it to fire-
-maa…!!-
-what!!-
-how could you do that to me maa..u knew it was from Taani and it was her last letter, and still, oh maa…can a mother be so cruel?-
-yes, I knew, it was from Taani and still I did that-
-did you read it maa?-
- there was no need, and I was not interested-
-I hate you maa-
-I did it for your good Rishi-
-what good maa? what good?I didn’t give her chance to speak her heart when she was alive and now, look maa, how fateless I am, she tried to tell me something for the last before she left for ever, and I missed even that. I lost the last source of encoding her core…. I, I suppose, I deserved it maa, I think I am punished this way.
-no beta, don’t think so-
-no maa, this is true…this loss will haunt me forever and ever…Taani I miss you..
To my Taani..
I saw you and that was all
Life changed forever
Though I could never say
But you were the only reason, I breathed after that
Life to me, became the task to see you in my world
To make you my queen.
My life became meaningless,
When you disappeared without reading my eyes,
Without listening to my heart
An era passed, I didn’t see you.
I thought I would die without letting you know, what you meant to me
But, my prayers fructified
We met,
I got the chance to unburden my heart
And I felt content to have told you what I always wanted to
Humans, we are never satisfied.
Now, I wanted you to love me too
Time went by listening to your voice and waiting for those words
And one day I heard the thing, I would have bargained my whole life for
You acknowledged my feelings
I had nothing more to demand.
But yet, I became selfish
Your emotional presence in my life was not all,
I wanted you to be mine every way,
And this broke us apart.
Now, when you are not there,
I realize all the more what you meant to me
I hope I had understood this when you were with me
However demanding I had been to you in my life,
I only wanted you to be mine, and only mine
Though you too said the same through your eyes
It took me long to understand your spiritual approach
But now, I know that you are mine
Wherever you are, be at peace
And remember only one thing about me,
That I truly truly love you and will die doing the same
Rishi
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