(77) LIFE IS IMPORTANT

"A child can teach you best lessons of your life"

So casually and so often, we talk about the ending of our life. At times, we joke about it, at times we use it as a threat, sometimes we say just for the sake of fun and at times, people mean it when they say it. But, never, one of us think about the repercussions of such an outcome on the lives of other’s which are attached to ours.
It’s seriously not as easy as we take, while we give a statement of uncertainty of life owing to reasons whatsoever. I have seen people who ersatz while saying that they damn do care of life and pretend as if nothing would change around by the loss of mere more of one being.
And yes, why should I talk about others, when I do the same many a times. Often when am annoyed, I do tell my people that they would only realize my importance when I be no more. I don’t know what I really mean to explain to them, but may be I get some kind of assurance of myself being important through the gentle reactions I receive in retort. And so the story never ends. For a time, it appears in a comparison form, at times as a threat and sometimes taking the shape of the outcome of agonies I behold for the feeling of being Un-important (probably my own illusions or perhaps the situation creates the feel).
But what happened yesterday was a lesson to me. Midnight 3.30, my daughter started crying loud with her eyes still closed and calling for me. She was asking me, “ mamma, aap kyu mar gaye, mujhe aap chahiye”(why did you die mamma, I want you)”. She repeated it almost 5-7 times while I was trying to make her open her eyes and look around that her mom was very much alive and with her, for her. After sometime, she cooled down and was relaxed to see me. I wiped her tears, hugged her tight and told her that am with her and will always be, and that I will never leave her. She was fine then, but did not sleep for quite sometime. She lied down with her eyes wide open starring at the ceiling. I asked her what she was thinking. She was still traveling in her bad dream which she had gone through few minutes back. I asked her to tell me the details though I was not sure if she would be able to tell me exactly what had happened, because this was the first time she had woken up from her dream and I explained to her what a dream is like. I told her, it’s just like a movie we watch in the movie hall, the only difference is that you see this movie with your eyes closed when you are sleeping. She bought my logic and then tried to explain me the series of incidents occurred to her in the dream.
:-She told me that mamma ( I ) was driving the car, she was sitting in the front passenger seat, her grandmother was in the back seat, and suddenly I hit the car into something very huge. I started bleeding profusely from my head, face and my hands, my fingers(she specified). My head hit the steering very hard, and I lied dead over there. She was trying to wake me up, but I didn’t listen to her and laid silent dead though she was crying like mad. :-

After she had done telling her part, she paused for a moment and asked me if I would ever die and leave her alone like I did in the dream. She said she loves me very much and she needs me always near herself. She told me, “ mamma, if you will die, who will love me, who will kiss me, who will feed me food, who will buy me new toys and whom will I play with”. I was into unstoppable tears, speechless, I hugged her as tight as I could and kissed her all the more. I promised her that I will never leave her alone and will be there always loving her, caring for her and guiding her throughout her life whenever she needs me.

I know, this promise can’t be kept forever, but I would pray I should be allowed by the almighty to fulfill this promise at least till that time, by when my three year old kid grows up enough to understand that there’s not much a difference between the physical presence and the absence of the one whom you love and the one who loves you, because love is eternal and will stay forever.

One should think of others as well, while taking a bad decision ( like concluding it )about their life. It may not be important for you, but it might be the lifeline for someone else.