Its been ten years since I fell in love with someone,for the first time. My world changed altogether.Life seemed so beautiful,meaningful and fascinating.I believed I had got the globe in my fist.I had never been in such an intense emotional involvement with anyone before.I began to live in fantasies.I admired my beloved so much that no-one else around appealed to me the least.I was living the best phase of my life with this someone in my verve.Despite the fact that I could barely take out much time to spend with my love ,that person remained with me every where I went and in everything I did.That celebrity of my life was so distinctive, so exquisite, so charismatic,one who conveyed the most alluring persona around,portraited the best form of human being,was the centre of attraction for all,was very divine,depicted the vivacious precursor of love through the converse, assured lasting accqaintance through the endeavors and demonstrated generosity towards everyone and in every task executed.I could give anything in trade to be with this effervescent individual right through whole life.
However, life, as they say, rotates on a wheel which meanders to good and bad likewise.So now it was my turn to bite the bullet.I encounterd a big attainment failure in my life which not only shattered my mental,physical potential but also ruined my entire emotive potency together with executing my world of whimsies.My life came to a stand still for quite some time until I got a further way to pull off the so called achievements to compete and withstand humanity.Perhaps by then,my love life had been eyed upon by the evil spirits and we lost each other for almost an eternity.
I got busy with studies,then career and making life socially better.But never for a day I forgot my someone and yearned for the same at all times.I strived very tough to get my love back, although it did not give any fruitful outcome.At length I dropped the hope,save for,never gave up doting this individaul.
3 years back,I got happily married and have a beautiful family.The best part is my little angel daughter.Nothing is imperfect anymore but nonetheless something always pinches me and jog my memory to miss that one without which am though living but not inclusive.
Above everything is God and HE is not so prejudiced. I have begun to pass by this person quite often in recent times and now I feel I have acquired my beloved all over again and this time its forever and ever.I have possessed this person so deep in my soul and my existence that even if I loose my physical hold on my adored,I’ll never loose for real.I might in life again face this loss of one being,but I utterly don’t want to loose on love involved in this relationship and I hope the resurgene of my love's homecoming resumes after each atrocious loss.
I am gratified to God for bringing this person into my life, if not, I would have never understood many facades of life in their real conduct, I wouldn’t have learnt to be hopeful,to commend and value what we have rather than to snivel and grumble about what is gone and will not be there.
Where did I come across this person lately?Few days back when I examined rather than looking at, myself, in the mirror.Yes,that love of my life is myself.I used to be a very aspiring,optimistic,self doer kind of person but owing to circumstances and lost of faith in myself I had naively slaughtered myself.I always wanted to bring back my oldbeing to life which eventually happened and am very happy for it.But love for my own self should not be mistaken for selfishness because that’s the last quality I would ever possess .Am looking forward to fulfill all my dreams with positive approach and enthusiasm to live life at its best and keep my love intact throughout this life and lives thenafter.
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