(117) Earth Hour

Earth hour - 2010


Hi, I have signed up for Earth Hour 2010 and I will switch my lights off- Saturday, March 27 between 8.30pm and 9.30 pm. Why don’t you also visit www.earthhour.in and show your support, switch off your lights tomorrow for an hour and do your bit to help support our planet.

(116) Test and Tears

A poet once said-“one can cross an ocean without wetting his legs, but cannot cross his life without wetting his eyes”. That’s life.
Tears appears with and sometimes without reason. My anesthetized behavior late this morning came up with questions. I just said am not feeling quite good. Reasons unknown, so I said. Then the phone rang, if it was mobile I would have avoided, it rung on the landline. My aunt was very excited about sharing some news. When done , she paused, and asked me if everything was alright. Was my tone so obviously numb that she felt it? I told her, I feel like crying, again reason unknown. She said, it is okay to feel so sometimes. Even she feels the same at times. She advised me to take out time for myself and be with myself. But I rather tried to get busy in other things. Didn’t quite work. Then I picked up a book and read few pages. Mood changed, but when kept back the book, it was all same. Tried to speak to friends, but didn’t help. Then I took myself in solitary for an hour and ordered to be honest. Often , it is more difficult to be honest to oneself than to others. I found the reason for the anxiety, or may be I accepted the already known one and thought of working on it. Not immediately, but may be in a course of time. But for today, I took one decision and when thought of writing about it , I happened to read the astro instruction which warned me for not taking any major decision today so as to not regret in future. What an irony?...i know,i know you might think, how can someone rely so much on mere astro –indications. Even I don’t, so blindly believe, but when your heart and mind doesn’t synchronize on some matters you tend to believe every other thing which either comforts you or at least keeps you away from making a decision. I know, it is foolish but I acknowledged. As I said, it is easier to be foolish at times, than to be bold and decisive. I behaved foolish. But that too wasn’t very comforting. I still felt like crying. Dheeraj advised me to cry out loud and unburden my heart. I couldn’t.

At last, I decided to watch the IPL cricket match and divert my mind. From 4-8 in the evening, I was in front of the TV, but that left me more upset as my favorite team, shahrukh’s team KKR lost it. Then , I cooked for Dheeraj and Charvi, fed them and tried to concentrate on anything which could make me feel better. Nothing worked. Then I received the above said(opening lines) message on my mobile. To keep engaged, I forwarded it to many people. I received in response, many beautiful messages. I read them all and felt, a little better. Now, I am tired and badly need a good night sleep. I just hope, I get the same.

A day, sometimes, brings with it a bag full of tests, patience pullers, anxieties, mood swings, spherical choices, and much more in disguise of bewilderment and then it trials out the gush of the salt water through eyes. And the very same day, sometimes, ends with a lesson to be lot more tolerant, accepting, appreciative, forgiving, comforting, supporting, loving and most importantly to be content with what life has given, because there is always someone who has got lesser than you.

Sharing some of the messages I received and still receiving. Thanks to all who sent them…

• Dictionary is one such place where DEATH comes before LIFE, SUCCESS comes before WORK, DIVORCE comes before MARRIAGE, and FRIEND comes before RELATIVE, thank you for being a friend.
• One of the joys in life is waking up each day with thoughts that somewhere someone cares enough to wish u great day and life.
• Never choose me as a friend without understanding, and never loose me because of misunderstanding.
• What is Love?. Love is when my mom kisses and says, “son, u are my dearest”.love is when I come back late at night and my father says,”why u had to come only?”. Love is when my bhabhi says, “ I have selected a girl for u, tell me if u like someone else?’, love is when I am moodless and my brother says,”common, lets go for a drive”. Love is when my friend hugs me and says, “ there’s no fun in life without you”.Love is not just between girlfriend and boyfriend.
• We love ourselves even after many mistakes..then why we hate others for their one mistake..strange but true..think before you hate someone…
• Why do we close our eyes when we pray, cry, dream or MISS someone?....because the most BEAUTIFUL things in life are not seen, but FELT by heart.
• One who holds your hand every time when you need support is surely a good friend but a true friend is one who holds your hand tightly when you say, “leave me alone”.
• There is no GOOD or BAD in this world, but thinking makes it so..what people call “Congestion” in a bus, becomes “Atmosphere” in a Disco.
• “Response” is a powerful weapon to occupy a place in other’s HEART.So always give response to people who cares for u.
• Sometimes I forget to say hi, at times i even miss to reply, at times my messages don’t reach u, but it doesn’t mean I forgot u,……….i just give YOU time to MISS ME.

And the two best ones..which I received a minute back from my mosaji and my student respectively are

• When Love fails, Emotions works. When Emotions fails, Memories works. When Memories fails, Words works. When Everything fails, take 90 ml Vodka, it really works.
• Heart Touching Lines by great Abdul Kalam-“Pyaar karne ke liye to ye Zindagi itni choti pad jaati hai, pata nahi log nafrat ke liye kaise time nikaal lete hai”.
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There are still more to go…..will share some other time…
Signing off with a hope to have a ghostly sleep and godly morning…good night

(115) Thought Worth Believing

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I was not really very willing to come up so soon with something on this blog and also I really don’t have any idea who reads my blog anymore besides my brother and few good friends. But I want to encourage my readers to give a thought to the thought I am gonna share today.

Two beautiful messages received early this morning. One said-“The person who loves you a lot will always do two things extremely for you. Silently Caring and Openly Hurting to make you perfect”. I read, replied and went to bed again, but couldn’t get back the sleep. My mind kept juggling with the thought forwarded through message. I wondered, if that was so true, why is it so difficult for us to forgive those beloved of ours who do wrong to us. Is it really so tough and testing to let pass the hurt feelings? Why do we hang on to the reasons and keep hurting ourselves by reliving the sad moments in the memories, though at the same time we desperately want the bad to get over and good to return through those lovely faces and voices which made our lives more meaningful and without whom life seems to be a punishment? Years ago, I lost two good friends because they lied to me and could never befriend them again, no matter, I have already forgiven them long back. I can’t tolerate people who lie to me, misuses my trust or back stabs me. Well, that’s about me..but why is the act of forgiveness not so prevalent in routine life?

What is the problem then? It has to do much with human nature. We are not born with egos or calculations, but we imbibe them eventually while growing into adults and thereby losing onto the innocence we held being children. A child’s love is pure, unconditional and effervescent. Every individual holds the experience of being in such love in the childhood, but fails to cling onto the same throughout or learn through it and gradually loses the grip on it while acquiring the more practical and sensible ways of living.

Wise people said, “Do to others as you would have them do to you!” If I want to be forgiven, I first need to impart forgiveness from my end. And, most importantly I should learn to forgive myself. So easy and so convenient, it sounds, and am sure once absorbed it would be easier to practice as well, but what needed is the courage to kick start it, to inculcate it within, deep within and then practice through actions.

Certain situations bring us dilemma. We want it to happen but we don’t carry courage to deal with it, we don’t want it to happen though we know it is certain, we wish it happened but we cannot put effort to let it, we wish it had never happened but we can do nothing to prevent it….and then we are sad. We fight with God for not giving us what we wanted, but later we realize that we got was better than that something. It’s a matter of faith in God, perseverance in the deed and patience for HIS answers. Nothing stays, everything passes by with the ticking of the time. Every eye, every life is witness to it but still fails to accept it. Deep within, we all know that nothing is going to stay for ever, we fear it and hence feel the pain. The fact is not going to change, but we can view it differently. If we fit the same thought in another frame, it becomes much more acceptable and bearable. To accept and appreciate what we have been offered is more convincing and contenting than complaining about something which is not achieved. “No one gets anything, before the time and more than what is destined.”

There’s one common beautiful thought shared through different stories, languages and people, followed and spoken by influential personalities, and strongly believed by many, I would like to share one form of it over here. How true and genuine it is, remains a question but the idea is to share the message. It’s a story about a Jewish king named Solomon who one day, assigned a seemingly impossible task to his minister Benamiah Ben Yehoyada. He asked him to find and bring a ring which when wore would change the feeling of the person wearing it. One feeling sad should feel happy, and one feeling happy should feel very sad. He was given a time line which was about to finish, and he desperately hoped for a miracle. Before the time ended, he went to one of the poorest place in Jerusalem and while vaguely searching he saw an old merchant selling some goods. He thought of taking chance with him and asked for such a magic ring which would reverse the effect on the person wearing it. The poor old merchant smiled and gave him a ring after imbibing four letters on it. Benamiah was very happy to return victorious whereas the other ministers in the court made mockery of him on his arrival assuming he had returned empty handed as every one knew that there existed no such ring on earth. Benamiah smiled and offered the ring to his Master. As soon as Solomon read what was written, he stopped laughing and realized that life was transient and everything is temporary. Those words were, “ This too shall pass”. So true and so proven. And we know it too, the only need is to acknowledge it .

These words when read gave me tremendous strength and confidence and I wanted to believe in it always, as this may make easier to pass through the difficult times and may prevent from getting overwhelmed and expectant in good times and thus help to live life with more peace and serenity.