(157) Fix

It becomes so difficult, when the worthiness and loyalty of one person in any relationship is always tested on some prefixed parameters. Is it possible for anyone to always standby or run through the errand down-lined to prove that he has utmost faith in the questioned bonding? Is it possible for anyone to sustain the dignity and trust in, even if he is rubbed against the rigid walls of selfish parameters, with the same nailing methods to surface his integrity?
           The person in question suffers and only suffers for not being able to justify the demands always, and not because he cannot jump over the fence and walk out, but because he wants to stay in and keep the bonding afresh, which though becomes seemingly impossible and painful...

(156) Lost

Thought,
Dreamed,
Searched,
Found,
Cared,
Cherished,
Loved,
Held,
Trusted,
Released,
And
Lost......

(155) Good day

Sun is shining bright and it's rays touching me through the glass door, and am enjoying the same sitting in the chair.I did not go the college today, had a backache, so relaxing at home.
           It was a bad day yesterday.Morning started on a tiff with a friend, college went through tough, and evening I encountered hurt while speaking to a family member on the phone.Thanks to my friends who came over in the afternoon and we did few of the college assignments.I could keep myself off from the lows of the mood.They had been coming to me since last Sunday, and might drop in tomorrow as well.I urged one of them to stay back last night, but she had some important task at home.Well, I am fine now. I spoke to another friend last night, and realized that nobody can hurt you unless and until you allow them and give them the right to do so. If you choose to remain unaffected, no action or word of others can leave you perturbed.On that note, I decided to go for a sleep and had a dream." I saw myself awaiting my turn to show to the doctor in some hospital.Though I had taken a prior appointment, I was made to sit and wait for eight hours there(weird na!)  and when it was my turn, the doctor was called for an emergency and she left me unattended with the pain for which I was there. I cried and I cried, donno for how long."  When I woke up, I felt light, relieved and much more resolved. One more time, life proved to me the metal of the belief I always held and trusted in so strongly," Whatever happens, happens for good".
                       Have a good day..

(154) Back home

“Little things you do for me and nobody else make me feel good,

Little things you do for me, making me smile and no one else could,

That’s why I like to sit next to you, and hear your mad stories,

I know they’re not true,

Little things you do for me..and nobody else make me feel good..”

This is the beautiful song I have been humming all the three months since it has been played by the Vodafone advertisement beginning from October.. am in love with this piece of song…

Another song which I quite like these days is “Chadha de rang, soniya ve..” from Yamla Pagla Deewana…its sung so melodiously..

So..I was back in Pune some days back, but fell sick on way return..then Charvi caught viral infection and was sick for a week.Now , we both are fine..and she started going to school again and I attended college almost after a month plus..it was a refreshing feeling to meet friends there.

But now, I have loads and loads of assignments to complete…

And trip to Udaipur had been very hectic. I travelled from Pune to Mumbai.Then Mumbai to Valsad, stayed overnight there, then Valsad to Ahmedabad and from Ahmedabad to Udaipur..God , I just got badly exhausted. All the family members had gathered there for a Puja which was organized for Charvi..Even my father’s family had come there, my parents, masa masi, mama-mami, cousin,my sis-in-laws, their families.

I went around all the places in Udaipur where I had been on my visit last year. Fatehsagar lake was full upto the brim..we went there in gang of girls, and went around other places as well..udaipur was different, or so I thought.

After Puja, we came to Ahmedabad, I went to see the construction progress of the property I bought in the city, it seems, I won’t get possession before April.I was very happy to see so many family members all together under one roof. I think, I celebrated 31^st December  in Ahmedabad almost after ten years…and it was very cold out there.Ahmedabad is changing very fast…I showed my school to my daughter..i wish to take her inside the school one day. I hope I get this opportunity during my visit this April..lets see..

It seems, there’s lots of travelling on card this season. I might go to Delhi or Goa for the college trip this month end. Have to attend three weddings in February back home. March-not confirmed yet,. April-Ahmedabad.May-Valsad…Oh..am goona live in packs for some months it seems..

Take care..