I know, since long time, my posts just appeared to be so lifeless, a run through without soul in it.Perhaps, this is how the life is as of now, too busy to hold on to and too slow to meet the needs. Well, in the same breath, here's again a short run through.
Feels as if God has put me on some kind of testing spree, and is in no mood to get me over it. As i shared earlier, my tooth treatment is still on and wonder how long its gonna take to be done with it. Few days before diwali, i faced some engorgement problem, got fever with chills, and fainted flat on the floor at 2.30 in the night. Gained consciousness in some minutes, but got bad hurts on my face,hand,head, infact entire left side of the body got hurt.Doctor gave me some antibiotics, advised rest and suggested to see the neuro if the head spinning doesn't stop.i was too exhausted to do anything for Charvi in Diwali and also, a small puja for nishka was to be done in the same week. i went to my mom's place for a week, celebrated Diwali with my parents after almost 15-16 years, performed nishka's puja and came back to pune. though it was very fulfilling, but my in laws were not very happy about it, and some cross words created hurt feelings, i cried a lot during those days, but things got settled down when my in laws gave a surprise visit here.
ya,but the headache and the abdominal pain didn't wanted to leave me and hence i showed to the doc again. she took some sonography tests and said that my abdominal cavity as observed from the upper layer, seemed to be deeper than it should be and the muscles have become week and hence the pain and so the trouble with the lower back as well. she advised me to see the physiotherapist.oh lord...that was one more task added, i visited physio and she said, i need to see her everyday for half an hour or so for the exercises, which was so practically impossible for me. i asked for another option, and she said,i should visit her weekly, learn some exercises, practice them at home, do treadmill and cycling in gym, go for a walk, and show her the progress every week...believe me, i haven't seen her yet again..and the neuro was on week's holiday and hence that visit too, is still pending.god am so much trapped up with thousand things going around. In the meanwhile, the honey bee, living in the out-chamber of the AC in the balcony, came to visit me and gave a kiss on my elbow.Delicate Me, could not bear it, poison spread through the arm,it got badly swollen, i could not bend it, let it loose, or even carry its weight on me, so i had to see the doc again. omg..tablets again...
well...yeh to chalta hi rahega...as i said, god is testing me.
On the good notes...i earned a great hour of happiness in just 50 rupees. last sunday, i had gone to reliance mart to buy vegetables.while i was waiting my turn in the billing queue, i saw some curious kids staring at the chocolate stand. the little girl who must have been around 7 years asked her brother,around 10 years old to buy her the 10 rupee dairy milk. he said he could not buy her that as they were five of them in the group and he had only 10 rupees. i called them near and gave all of them one chocolate each. except that elder brother, all of them took it. he said, "no, we wont take, why are you giving it to us?" i said, "it's my birthday" he said, "no u are lying". i got little perplexed and said, "no, its my daughter's b'day'."he asked me again,"are u sure?". i said,"ya, please take it"..then he too took it, and all of them shook hands with me, and said thank you one by one.throughout the way, driving back home, i was thinking about those innocent glares at the chocolate, that dismay for not being able to buy them, and the self-worth denial to accept it from me, and at last those smiling faces and heartfelt thanks...i bet, 50 rupees and a small lie,just made my day.
Feels as if God has put me on some kind of testing spree, and is in no mood to get me over it. As i shared earlier, my tooth treatment is still on and wonder how long its gonna take to be done with it. Few days before diwali, i faced some engorgement problem, got fever with chills, and fainted flat on the floor at 2.30 in the night. Gained consciousness in some minutes, but got bad hurts on my face,hand,head, infact entire left side of the body got hurt.Doctor gave me some antibiotics, advised rest and suggested to see the neuro if the head spinning doesn't stop.i was too exhausted to do anything for Charvi in Diwali and also, a small puja for nishka was to be done in the same week. i went to my mom's place for a week, celebrated Diwali with my parents after almost 15-16 years, performed nishka's puja and came back to pune. though it was very fulfilling, but my in laws were not very happy about it, and some cross words created hurt feelings, i cried a lot during those days, but things got settled down when my in laws gave a surprise visit here.
ya,but the headache and the abdominal pain didn't wanted to leave me and hence i showed to the doc again. she took some sonography tests and said that my abdominal cavity as observed from the upper layer, seemed to be deeper than it should be and the muscles have become week and hence the pain and so the trouble with the lower back as well. she advised me to see the physiotherapist.oh lord...that was one more task added, i visited physio and she said, i need to see her everyday for half an hour or so for the exercises, which was so practically impossible for me. i asked for another option, and she said,i should visit her weekly, learn some exercises, practice them at home, do treadmill and cycling in gym, go for a walk, and show her the progress every week...believe me, i haven't seen her yet again..and the neuro was on week's holiday and hence that visit too, is still pending.god am so much trapped up with thousand things going around. In the meanwhile, the honey bee, living in the out-chamber of the AC in the balcony, came to visit me and gave a kiss on my elbow.Delicate Me, could not bear it, poison spread through the arm,it got badly swollen, i could not bend it, let it loose, or even carry its weight on me, so i had to see the doc again. omg..tablets again...
well...yeh to chalta hi rahega...as i said, god is testing me.
On the good notes...i earned a great hour of happiness in just 50 rupees. last sunday, i had gone to reliance mart to buy vegetables.while i was waiting my turn in the billing queue, i saw some curious kids staring at the chocolate stand. the little girl who must have been around 7 years asked her brother,around 10 years old to buy her the 10 rupee dairy milk. he said he could not buy her that as they were five of them in the group and he had only 10 rupees. i called them near and gave all of them one chocolate each. except that elder brother, all of them took it. he said, "no, we wont take, why are you giving it to us?" i said, "it's my birthday" he said, "no u are lying". i got little perplexed and said, "no, its my daughter's b'day'."he asked me again,"are u sure?". i said,"ya, please take it"..then he too took it, and all of them shook hands with me, and said thank you one by one.throughout the way, driving back home, i was thinking about those innocent glares at the chocolate, that dismay for not being able to buy them, and the self-worth denial to accept it from me, and at last those smiling faces and heartfelt thanks...i bet, 50 rupees and a small lie,just made my day.
