(253) Calmness

The state which I have been seeking so desperately since few days, came to me from the person I wouldn't have expected to come from otherwise. Not that I spoke about my restlessness and she came ahead with a solution or something, because for that I, myself would have had to nail the exact problem and discuss. I had been into lotsa dilemmas off late, packed with anxieties and weird fears which didn't let me sleep one full night. And I am completely unaware what was the exact cause of all these turbulence. Not that I quoted a problem and I got some calming answer. Perhaps, the aura, the presence or something more philosophical, spiritual or donno what, but something soothened me off. I feel more calm, more focused and more relaxed.

Temperatures dipping everyday, I am freezing everyday. Nose turning red and reminding me of all the funny names I got because of my nose turning red in winter, laughter and anger. Last night real feel was minus one degree.

What else?..Had a sudden, surprise and pleasant skype chat with an old friend today.It was nice, although during entire chat I was eating my lunch.

And...though I am calm,I am missing my mom too much. Longing to put my head in her lap and sleep for eternity and experience the real calm. Waiting to see her smiling face, getting wrapped in her blessed hug and eat food made by her. Can't wait to see her.......Missssssssssssiiiiiiinnnnnnnnngggggggggggggg soooooooooooo muccccchhhhhhhh!!!!

(252) Weird post it is!!

She doesn't hold the key to the lock. In fact she doesn't even know, for that matter, what the key is supposed to look like. So,is she that big a dumb?.No!!! Not at all, she is quite a bunch of intellect. But then, do the intellects behave thus. No na..May be I mistook her to be smart.May be she is just as good in pretending someone that she is not, as I am at defending what I am. Am I not supposed to be myself?..I think I should always be myself. That's how I feel the most me and most alive.Other any which ways I feel a dead being in living flesh. So, am I wronged out then. Well.....this is gonna be a real messy thing I suppose. Why but? Why messy...Did I harm anyone whosoever any way till date? No...never!! Right..so what the hell with this crap and dung being thrown at here. Barricade self darling, barricade! Hmm...Right. You know what! It's just one more learning for a stupid little dumbo writing this.Ha ha ha..!!!Funny, is it!!..May be..on one note,may be not,,on another!..But cares who, me and you(that's me again)! Then..its midnight sweetheart...cut the crap here,,,and hit the sack.Long day ahead...And stop writing these un-important things..cos may be such un-witty occurence may happen every other day....Moscow calling is it!!..Na na.....indians in moscow u say!!
Well.....not every one is the same!..So ignore the ignorant, embrace the deserving!!

And who is She????...Oh well.....rule of the blog...we don't generally name them... who are either being referred with lotsa love or least(none) of it!!!I am dead for now...Good night!

(251) You think, You get..Is it !!

I have read this and heard over and over again, that ones thoughts are so powerful that they can bring in life the thing or person aimed at. And thus follows the advice further saying.."Think Positive".

Well, off lately, I have been observing that whatever I thought I got. Could have been dangerous too,but most often it turned out pleasant. So, does it mean, that ever earlier, whenever I did not get to achieve what I wanted, I was not focused enough to support my thoughts? Or, is it ,that this phenomenon has started working for me only since, very recent times?.. I wonder,how should I feel about it. Be happy or Be remorseful...............

But again....reminder, reminder....Think Positive!!! Okkeyyyy...
I am!!

(250) Wishes are butterfly

Wishes are butterfly..and so am I, fluttering the wings of whimsies to reach the endless sky.

(249) Crazy wish!

Well, amongst many crazy ones, I have this wish too. To get drunk enough to forget that there are people around, and simultaneously to have control enough to hold my feet on floors, and then dance,dance and just dance. Dance to my core without the fear of being judged.

(248) Look after yourself!

If you will not plan for yourself, there are chances you may let yourself fall in other's plans and guess, what they have planned for you?....Not really any plan...not much!! So look after yourself, no one else knows you better than yourself, and no one else will understand yourself better!