(150) Fever still on

Weather and my body are not very willing to come in sync with my health. And, I am so much done with these medicines, that i have just stopped popping them.Plus, college assignments are getting broader and tougher every day.AM tired. Enough...
May be I will go for a complete body check up and see whats wrong with my systems.
          I was talking to my father four days back and he asked me why am i not improving on my health..i told him because my mother is not visiting me, he asked, will her arrival make me ok..i said yes. Guess what?..My mom is coming home tonight. Though am feeling so tired but I am desperately waiting to go and pick her up. Am sure, her presence will make me feel some better.
         And you know what, last week when I drove down the lane to see the doctor, my eyes saw something which gave me immense pleasure. My vicinity has got a new outlet for Cafe Coffe Day...Now, i dont have to drive seven kilometers every time I miss my cold coffee. In hyderabad, it was just half a kilometer away, so i could take a walk there for coffee. In delhi, it was in the mall opposite to my building, so had to get down and cross the road. But here in Pune, it was  a bit far, but no more. Now, even if I won't have a car any day and I still want to go, i can just walk the distance and savor my coffee. Right now, I am controlling my temptations because of cold, choked throat and this ever surfacing fever. You know what, every morning I feel little better, and by the time its evening, temperature increases. Hmm..but I am strong.See, I have not given up anything. I do all my chores regularly, I go to college and do all my work too. except for last week, I did no gulli.Chalo....bye for now...waiting for mom..
one sec..one sec..ek cheez bhul gayi....bad news..my cook left the job...am searching new one

(149) Bits..

It seems, viral is in love with me...Barely couple of months back i had hugged it and with a bang it is back. After a trip, meeting up friends families, entertaining guests, diwali cleaning, college submissions and lot of thinking, my immunity called it off. more than 8 days, viral fever is still on. though i overcame fatigue, and appeared for exams, temperature is still in touch.
         Last evening, i was very upset. Sat quiet on the bean bag for quite long time. Then received a call from one of my friend and shared about my mental state, but still i could not decode exact cause. Later then, I thought, now all my inner strength and connections with nature and my instincts are getting aged.Even my intuitions and telepathy tools are getting rusted, so i thought.And i hoped to get better this day.
          Though temperature dipped this morning, but fatigue surfaced back, and i didnt feel like doing anything throughout the day. i did'nt read, surf, or do any constructive thing. i rather lazed around whole day and kept irritating all others.
          God gives answer in his own way...
Well...i thought of writing many things throughout last span of a month, but could never be sure enough to do so..plus my health and other pressures kept me off..
Guest at home, a family friend, kept on telling me since the day he has come, that i look too pale and ugly, tanned, tired, and not the same charming person he met 4 years back.
Well..he said the same thing so many times in last few days that now i so seriously have started thinking and checking myself in the mirror if i have truly turned back my care from myself..hmm.ya , it seems so..
though endless to write yet, i abruptly cut down here and hope to get off with fever and fatigue soon enough and am glad god shows his presence sooner or later in life..

(148) Because..

I don't want,
you to cry..
When I die,
You know Why?..

Because....

I love you...
And I can't see tears in your eyes...

(147) i see you

In tuck of the twilight,

In crimp of the moonlight,

In stars all, dull and bright;

I see you every night.

Warmth of earth I walk on,

Gives me sense of you,

To feel you in the mud;

It is such a delight.

When I touch the flower,

The tenderness I gain,

I wish I could hold you;

In my arms, so tight.

The way you run your fingers,

Cool breeze fling my hair.

To look straight in your eyes;

Each time, is a beauty sight.

(146) Am watching you

I am watching here these stars
These stars are watching you
So in a way my love
I am always watching you

Dare you do something
That sparks my temper goose
Will give you toughest time
And keep that time on snooze

Don't you think you are free
To do things out of hell
You step out of my mind
My heart will ring the bell

So listen to this my darling
For once and all the while
Though you may go away
Will remain in my exile

Be sure and mind your steps
I have set on you, my eyes
Will hold on you for ever
And watch you through the skies

(145) Happy Birthday

Hey..it's Shahrukh Khan's birthdhay...So...cheers to him...and lots of wishes...